Color you life with your spouse is a beautiful thing.

♥ Happy or not being with each other, all depends on how we both color our life ♥

     

      Whenever I can't sleep at night, I wanted to message you. BUT! Everytime when I pick up my hand phone, the first thing will come to my mind is "Hey Shuyee! Don't disturb him. He's sleeping. Tomorrow he got to wake up early to go to school." Sad isn't? What to do? Hubby boy need to sleep. He's a pig. Kuat tidur la kononnya.

      I don't message you that often. Most of the time, you are the one who start messaging me. BUT! When I'm frustrate, sad, stress and etc, I need you by my side. I don't dare to message you. WHY???? It's because I don't want to disturb you. I messaged you and you don't reply me sometimes. It hurts. Wait for your reply like nobody business. What about me? When you message me, I'll straight away reply your message. When I late reply your message, you'll call me. What is this man? C'mon. SAD! SAD! SAD! Sometimes I wonder am I doing the right thing. Never mind. Ignore me. Haha.

      Somehow, you've become part of my life now. Without you, I'll feel lonely. Hand phone no longer rings at times. You're the one that I adore because you're the perfect man to me. You told me you scared when I say you're perfect. Just because your ex told you you're perfect then she cheated on you and went off with other guy and this make you feel scared whenever your baby girl says you're perfect? You scared I'll do the same thing like what you ex did to you?  Should I tell you I understand your feelings? *thinking deeply*

      I ask you whether we should just break up instead of continuing our relationship and most of the time, you will ask me why? Let me tell you bie. I feel like I'm a dummy to you. Whenever you need me, you will find me. Where have you been when I need you the most? When I cry to you, you will ask me to calm down, chill and try to pujuk me. But tell you what. I always tell you I'm not okay and try to act sad happy in front of you.

      Alright peeps. No mood continue writing. Lazy plus I'm hungry.

Bie, I love you. :)

I love you, my honeyboo! You're so sweet! Hehehee. Just being random for now. 

Where were you when I need you the most?

 I seriously feel like giving up on you. I'm stressed. I wanna cry. I'm sorry.

Having you as my boyfriend is my pleasure? I can't give you an answer. Sometimes I feel happy being with you and sometimes I don't. I've tried to keep all my feelings to myself. Recently I found out that I'm just so emo because of you. I'm saying so because I feel that you don't care about me anymore and this really hurts me. You care about your friends more than I do. I feel so helpless now and everytime I emo, you will try to chill me down but you failed. Do you know whenever I'm emo it's because of you? When I'm emo, what comes to my mind is.......

“let's break up.”

Be my boy once again.

Sometimes whenever I see you, my heart melts because you're too cute. Although the hatred still there and I feel like punching you to express how much I hate you when you hurt me the most.

Everytime you're by my side, you only can accompany me and I'll be happy when you do so. I don't need a present or whatsoever to make me happy. What I need is just your caring, your love, your sayang, your support and etc. So please take care of me, sayang me, and of course don't ever hurt and disappoints me. I don't wanna get hurt anymore. It feels really bad. Sucks!

Reminiscing the past moments with you is a sweet dream. But now, it's a nightmare. I'm worrying you all the time. You're so caring that let me sleep and don't wake me up because you see me have a nice sleep. Awww~~ I'm such a pig. 

You stole my heart away.

Why must you stole my heart away? I don't know because of your friends are not online that's why you come and chat with me or whatsoever. I don't care what's the reason behind it because I just wanna chat with you BUT NO ONE ELSE. You keep telling me you want to meet me. You even make me say that I admire you, like you AGAIN. LOL. You even give me a kiss. *heart melts* *faint* You even want more from me! You want a warm hug! Awww~~~ So sweet of you. You asked me how long have we not been seeing each other. I can tell you hun, we haven't see each other for more than 3 months. Of course you always tell me to keep my promise and you will keep yours. Don't worry. I'll promise you I'll keep my promise till you take my promise away from me.

Last night, I broke down again. I don't know why. I can't even answer myself why. Then what make me the worst was this flirty bitch which was the same batch as me for some program, she try to seduce you and I see you happily comment on what she posted on your wall till I post " I wonder what makes me no mood right now. I can't even answer myself. I can only cry alone and seek to God. </3 :'(" and you stop commenting. Well well. I don't want to think too much. So went out for supper with friends and that's it.

Where have you been?

Where have you been when I need you the most? Where have you been when I'm weak and need someone to cry and lean on? Where have you been when I'm sick and need you to remind me take care of myself by putting cloth on my forehead? Where have you been when I need you to pamper me? Where have you been when I need you to cheer me up when I'm down but not other people keep cheering me up? Where have you been when I wanna dream of someone in my dream? Where have you been..............???????

Do you know that the prettiest smile I have will ONLY exist when I'm with you?

It's because you're the one who paint my life with beautiful colours. I realised that after the day we aren't together anymore, my prettiest smile no longer appear on my face. The one people sees now, perhaps is just pretending. People always quote that "Smile Is The Prettiest Make Up" . I believe that. I really do. 

OMG! OMG! OMG! I've gone mad!

Yesterday afternoon I woke up at 12.30pm and on my lappie. Was Facebook-ing then out of my expectation, you came and find me chat again! OMG! OMG! OMG! There's this word "syg" appear when I asked you whether have you eaten. OMG! OMG! OMG!!!!! I'm going crazy soon. I don't know what are you trying to do with me now. Trying to get back with me or just trying to be my close friend? I want an answer from you. Things just can't be hanging there for nobody's business.

BEWARE!!!

MAD WOMAN IN THE HOUSE!!!!

I need you now. Falling in love with you once again isn't a big matter. Falling in love with the others only is a big matter. Because I don't know how to love other people anymore except YOU.

If you're willing to chase me, I promise I'll run slow.

I find it hard to fall in love with others after loving you for so long. Why? I just can't assist myself anymore. What I need now is YOU. YOU! How I wish I could ask you, "how have you been?", "watcha doing now?", "are you missing somebody?" and etc. But I can't. Just can't. I even treat one of my friend like the substitute of you. I don't know why. I'm so sorry. This friend of mine, sms me today early morning around 7am and when my hand phone rings, I woke up and replied him straight away without delaying. As if I'm replying you honey during those days we were together! I miss you so much. I really miss you extremely much. The way friend treat me now is like how you treat me in those days. Slowly, all this will fall into places. I can't expect much from you anymore hun. Don't make me fed up and give up on you one day, my six packs sexy guy. 

Like ≠ Love

Like ≠ Love

Make your mind clear

and

think properly before you confess.

I can't believe you came to me last night and congrats me. I wonder why you congrats me. I did nothing that can make you saying a "congratulations" to me. After asking you, I understand why. You saw this statement above on my Facebook status. 

It was a misunderstanding, dude. 

Seriously so far there's 3 people had a crush on me at National Service camp early of this year and they recently confessed to me. But I reject them all. I post that statement as my status because I want 3 of them to know the meaning between like and love. I don't want them to confuse with the 2 words like and love then love the wrong person. By the way, I don't have feeling towards 3 of you. Not to say I want to be proud of myself that I got 3 people confess to me. I'm not showing off. I want them to find their true love, so do I. Hun, you misunderstood everything! I didn't expect you saw it and took your first step to talked to me last night and congrats me because got people confess to me. I don't want to hear a word "congrats" but 12 words "I love you, are you willing to be my syg once again?". Perhaps you're jealous? I really want to know are you jealous of all this?

Lying can cause losing ones trust.

If you're planning to lie to me, at least make sure I don't find out the truth. Losing your trust like crumbling up a piece of paper. Even if I try to fix it, it will never be the same again, you know? 

Tell you what, hun. Sometimes things aren't what you thought that easy. You got to go through it by yourself then only you will know how it feels like. I've just realise that many relationships can't work because sometimes even when we love the person, the timing is just wrong. Maybe not just because of timing but because of distance. Distance do play an important role too. I've learned from it.

A day to remember!

For the very first time in campus life, I fell down and my elbow get injured. Not to say serious injury but part of my skin was peeled off.

Why I fall down? How?

Here it goes. I was cycling and I actually turned my head back to check out my friend with her E-bike. End up I bang into this fire hose thingy then I fell. Luckily there's just two females saw me and they were like:" Whoah~". I replied:" I'm okay, I'm okay." with my smiling face. Then my friend heard some kind of sound and she saw me laying down there. Hand phone fell off from my pocket and get scratched. There it goes. Awesome isn't? Haha.

I'm yours and you're mine.

Do you know how much you meant to me? You won't know because you don't even bother to know.

I'm extremely happy when you replied all my messages. I keep jumping like nobody business. Although we didn't talk much just now but I do enjoy throughout our conversation. I can't believe you ask me to on my Skype and we Skype once again! Oh My Gosh!!!! Arghh! You're freaking cute! 

Oh well. You're busy doing your homework for tomorrow'sclass. I also don't want to disturb you so we end our video there. I hope shuyee at least still in your heart and your mind.