"You choose me." he said.
With this three words actually hurt me
alot! I feel like i'm a rubbish which nobody wants and is like I force you to
accept me all this while. Try putting yourself into my shoe. What if I say the
same thing? You choose me, not I choose you. Which means that you got feeling
towards me, but I don't have feeling towards you. This somehow can make you
dump me whenever you want. Don't you think so?
I feel so shame for myself now. I didn't
know I'm the one who wanted to started all this till I saw your post saying I'm
the one who choose you. I shouldn't have do so! Now being with you, I scared my
parents, siblings, cousins, aunties, uncles and friends who know my family get to
know that I have a bf. It is way easier for me to have no bf in my life for
now. I don't have to worry this, worry that. Lying to my parents and etc.
CAREFREE! By the way, it's hard to express my feeling now. So, Kay Bye.
Starting from now on, I won't express my
feelings towards anyone. I won't! For the next relationship, I will just sit
down and wait for the special one come to me. NOT ME GO TO HIM! NEVER!
p/s: if you love her, never let her sleep crying. ♥
