P.S. I Love You

"P.S. I Love You"

This Is What I Wanna Tell You.

I'm belong to you....

I always ask myself. What can I do to make you come back to me? What can I do to make you come back to me? I miss you so much. I miss you so so much. I miss you so so so much! I beg you come back to me please although it's your fault at the first place. I know I can't have you anymore. You told me you still miss me. You still sayang me.

PLEASE...........

Come back to me...............

You used to ask me "where's the old shuyee?"  And I always answer you "the old shuyee died already." Now I regret saying so. How I wish you really could come back by my side. I miss those days we used to sms in the midnight. I never sleep just to accompany you sms till morning. I miss you when you're outstation, you will sms me in the midnight at 5++ am just to inform me you've reach the destination safely. I miss you calling me just wanna hear my voice and I miss your voice too. I miss the days we used to skype. I miss you singing in front of me like an idiot. I miss you cheering me up when I'm down. I miss you actually take the opportunity to borrow friend's laptop just to skype and Facebook chat with me when you're outstation. I miss those days I get scolded by my parents just because I keep sms-ing, Facebook-ing, even using hand phone to Yahoo chat with you no matter in the morning, in the evening or at night. I miss the days I pampered you and the cranky face you have. I miss you keep asking me to take bath once I wake up. You're my alarm clock. Now I no longer have this cute alarm clock waking me up in the morning. I miss those days daddy took away my laptop and hand phone and I can't contact you at all. End up I asked my fiance which luckily you know her to pass my message to you. I miss those days when I'm having my exams, you keep wishing me and support me. Your words always in my mind keep spinning and spinning till now. I can't stop thinking about you! I really can't!

Baby, come back to me please. I really need you in my life. You're important to me. 

Home sweet home

I miss home.  8 more days to go babeyh!!!

Baby come back to me.

Come on baby! I love you more than anything! Tell me you hate love me too please. WEEE~~~ Remember enjoy your Raya ya! After Raya you got to continue your working days. Pity you. :( I don't care how much you love her, but I wanna tell you I still love you. 

My words to you, mommy!

I cried when I Skype with mommy yesterday midnight. Just somehow I broke down and my tears keep dropping down. I feel something but I just can't tell what is it.

Told mommy I don't wanna study in Kampar anymore. I'm stressed. I wanna go back KL. :'(  Surprisingly, she didn't scold me but ask me to pack my things and go back KL and study Diploma instead of Foundation if I really wish to.

But mommy, you know what?

It's too late if I go back KL and take Diploma now....

I'm stressed because of my love problems actually. Not because of my studies. :P Mommy, I can't stand by myself anymore. I need someone to lean on. God, help!

I don't dare to tell mommy about my love problems all this while. I keep it to myself. Don't know why this time I broke my law and I tell her EVERYTHING and she actually feel bad and sad for me. Out of the blue, she didn't even scold me having a relationship without her knowledge but support me and ask me to forget him.

Awww~~~

Mommy, I love you extremely much!!!

Told mommy, that jerk gave her a nice necklace as her birthday gift on her 23 years old birthday and my mommy asked me not to worry and she will buy me a new one as the necklace I'm wearing now is getting 'not so nice'. Hey girl, you got your new boyfriend buy for you. So lovely la you two. But I got my lovely mom buy for me leh. Motherly love is way greater than boyfriend's love. For your information, you look like a elder sister when you stand beside that jerk, do you know that? You actually look like as if you're 30++ years old but you're just 23 years old. I'm so sorry to say that, but it's true. You look way older than your real age.

Mommy, 

I'm glad to see them very happy jealous.

After sharing my love problems with mommy, I actually feel better. Thanks mommy! You're my best friend. You're an awesome gift from God to shuyee! Lots of love to you mother! 

I'm lost and everything has gone.

I know you starts to ignore me and I'm proud of myself to say the same thing to you! I ignore you too! Always telling people I will forget you, I will forget you. But I always will end up crying whenever I think of you and my close friends come to me and accompany me.

You know what, because of you, you actually make people around you happy sad.

I don't know your new gf which also far apart from you now is fooled by you or you make her fall in love with you or she really loves you. But I try my best to wish you two. After wishing, my heart hurt like nobody's business. Actually I don't feel like wishing. I was forced to say it.

Can you feel it, jackass??

Alright. People like you don't have feeling. You fool one by one. I bet after me, she will be your next victim. I don't care how much you love her, but I'm sure you will dump her like me now when you found another girl you love.

I always keep telling myself, you aren't my prince. You should go with her. You should go with her! But I can't say it out loud. I've already ready for the day we say "Goodbye", but why am I still so hurt when I know you love someone else? Because you're my property? LOL!

C'mon, shuyee!

What are you thinking?

Don't be so innocent, can you?

Where's the promise we had last time? You're the one who ask me to be your close friend! Look what happen now! You don't even take the advantage to bother and care of me! What kind of promise you've made?

EVERYTHING IS BULLSHIT!

You're my heartbeat

Long time didn't spend my time on blogging. I'm so sorry. :'(
YO! So, what am I going to share today is my feelings towards some jerk which I've spent my precious time almost half a year with him. He used to be my sexy guy, my man, my hun, my sweetie pie, my sweetheart. But now, NO LONGER. I'm so sorry. Oopss! Why must I say sorry to you?

You cheated on me.

You lied to me.

Why must you lied to me at the first place, dude? Just within one month time I didn't contact you that often and you go and fall in love with other person. Bastard!

Okay. Fine. I know we're far apart. So in conclusion, we can't express our love physically. I know I know. But now you fall in love with someone and you don't even wanna tell me. You keep this secret till I find out and ask you personally. This is the main point I wanna talk today.

Shame on you, man!

You even thought of having both girls at the same time. One heart can't break into two. Why can't you tell me earlier that you love someone else? Why must you love someone and at the same time you love me? I'm not the third party! She is! I rather give up on you and let that girl go with you. Because what you did to me had showed that you're not worth my love, my tears, my everything. NOT A SINGLE THING! Who am I to you? A toy which you can fool around with? I can't accept this game, okay? Anyhow, she's forgiven, NOT YOU! Because she doesn't know a single thing about you and I. You're the one who is playing the main role. Can't blame her though.

YOU'RE NOT SINCERE TO ONE!!!

GET LOST!

BUT

I LOVE YOU STILL <3

I've tried my best to give up on you. But till now, I find it hard. I still stalk you on Facebook every day. My best friends told me to not to think of you but I can't . They even said I deserve a better one, you're not worth a single tears of mine. But I choose to close my ears and ignore them. I'm lost now. I don't know what to do. I see you and her is going on well. You guys like each other's post on Facebook and so on. My eyes can't get lost from your profile. Seeing you two doing such thing like liking each other's post make me feel bad.

Oh Lord, help me. :'(